Skyping with Kit, I explore the “something” in me that feels and thinks that the old tortured identity is to be preferred to awakening. It has been made a connection, it seems – it is “known”, “familiar,” “me,” “how it IS” – the path is well-trodden.
A few days ago, I believed in what Barbara wrote: The “evidence” of pain is simply “False Evidence Appearing Real = Fear. I was in an enlightened state of mind for about an hour or more. All was simple there – easy – free – joyful.
And then the “wham” comes, predictably – back in ego-perception.
Seeing the connection, made in fear, means that it is dissolving.
