The stone of anger and justified attack

In Pierre Pradervand’s beautiful book, “The Gentle Art of Blessing,” he describes an exercise he gave a group – to find a heavy stone and a steep trail (a simple task in the Swiss Alps) and to carry it up that trail as “your burden” – and then let go of it.

I did that yesterday. It was big and weighed 22 pounds. I put it in my rucksack and  I trudged up the trail in deep snow. What was the burden: my attack-thoughts. The deep old anger, still justified.

It was so heavy! I first thought I could not  manage more than 150 feet – but I made frequent stops and leaned forward, supporting myself on two ski poles.

Suddenly it felt much lighter.

It took some time…the snow was deep, but the weather was magnificent, 23 Fahrenheit, sunlight, and  in 45 minutes I was high up, disposing the stone on a beautiful place with a great view over the Village

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It was sweet to deeply recognize that I was the one who had been hurt, dragging it along all those years – and I am the only one who could choose to set it down. I realized that I actually had believed I kept someone on the hook as long as I kept the rage – like I had power over them –  but it was really me who was poisoned –

It felt sweet to put it down and say enough, and I felt like making an angel in the snow, right at the precipice

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1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. Mona Gustafson Affinito
    Jan 27, 2015 @ 20:41:02

    Powerful forgiveness story

    Reply

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