Dis-identifying

Slowly SLOWLY it dawns on me a knowing that I am finished connecting memories and feelings and seeing that as a prerequisite for healing and wellbeing. That ALWAYS brings great peace – but only for a few minutes, it seems. Now, since I started using the procedures in Wholeness Worksand doing the online training . it dawns on me that I, like the rest of the Corona-stricken humanity, are  pushed out of old modalities and forced to go deeply into the very kinesthetic about suffering -the felt sense, the sensation quality of anything.

What has repeated itself faithfully in my life is this: after each beautiful full healing, “something” goes right back to the usual stress and agony and chaosmind-mode – and the frequency of that is very low. What happened now were a change in my mind: instead of agonizing, I noticed the sensation of all that muck and chaos- collective thoughts – and I heard myself resonating, “I could be the awareness of all of that – instead of automatically identifying with it.

I was aware that I automatically had identified with ANY feeling that came to me – and that there had to be a part inside that chose to do that.

And that that part must be very old – and young – and that I now could gently invite it to accept the invitation to merge and integrate in and AS awareness – which is all around and inside with no edges and no judgments.

I did not sense that it said yes – but all the same, I felt a seeping of the low frequency energy into the full field of awareness.

The freedom felt indescribable. What was stunning was that I breathed much freer.

And it comes from a clear choice to BE the awareness of the suffering.

 

 

3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Barbara Rodgers
    Aug 26, 2020 @ 11:53:51

    It is such a helpful skill, learning to not identify with our feelings. Reading Joan Tollifson’s books on nonduality helped me to be aware of feelings as weather that is always changing, never permanent, never me. I am happy to know you are breathing much freer now. ♡

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  2. leelah saachi
    Aug 26, 2020 @ 13:10:04

    Thanks Barbara ! 🙂

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  3. Mona Gustafson Affinito
    Aug 26, 2020 @ 21:54:25

    Good work! Well reported! (Oh gosh. Does that ever sound like an American talking) And I’m glad for you.

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