The Sacred Prostitute

I did my morning meditation – imagining to be, to fully embody, the truth of Who I am – the Light of the World. Connecting my roots to the earth, until feeling a grounding energy so vast that nothing can rock me. Drawing it up into my heart. Imagining the Christ Light pouring down through my crown chakra, filling my body, merging with the energy of my heart.

There was block in the Solar Plexus area, and I asked that my LOVE, my Self, tended to that for me – embracing it. Then She was there: The Goddess – in the form of The Sacred Prostitute. Vast, ALL LOVE. Addressing me and all of humanity

 “There IS only LOVE.

You have never sinned. You were never guilty. You just had allowed yourselves to forget Who you are. When I loved you, I saw right through the beast of you, the sinful one, the guilty shameful person, to your shining Presence of Love.

And I loved that Truth back in you.”

I cried rivers while she spoke, and felt a blessing so vast, there’s no word for it – like all past erased, only TRUTH remains: I am the Holy Child of God, as everyone who reads this is too – The truth is true ALWAYS.

I wanted to share this with you and asked her to speak to us all:

As a Sacred Prostitute in temples through many traditions and cultures, you and I joined in God – although many of you did not allow your awareness to go there, you just felt relieved for a timeless moment. That moment stayed with you, and helped you wake up – or not. You have all the only power there is to decide when that moment comes. That moment happened in the same split second when you decided to separate and experience and explore the world as separate beings. As long as you limit yourself to believe in time, it will come in time – it is set. But you who read this and may know that time is a construct you have made to hold separation in place, you can choose to remember NOW

There are no sinners. There is only One, dressed up as many, to play out separation – out of your own choice to forget who you really are. You have been experts of forgetting and creating deeper and darker violence and insanity, and I have joined with you in the most intimate way. I have seen through the beast in you, the agonized sinner, the tortured child –  to your shining Self who always is Home in God. In union with me, you have known this – and many of you covered it up. Some of you did not, and was transformed. Who I am, cannot be harmed, cannot be changed, cannot be tainted. I am as you are. Wake up!

In your ceaseless craving to be punished by a god that does not exist, you created lives after lives where your decision was fulfilled – perpetrated by your friends in LOVE that consented to take on these roles of perpetrator to experience yet  one way to be separate.  You have all done it all, been it all, and it is all a dream that YOU have chosen – since it is impossible to be separate from your Source, which is God. You can believe that you can – and there you are, seemingly stuck in the world, made up of your own perception of guilt, projected onto others.

It is amazing to me how many times I think it is necessary to be shown this – how deep-seated the “me” seem to be – how all my choices to BE the me I am conditioned to be, through the parents, friends, teachers, authorities, and time-frames I have chosen. Gradually I learn that all these experiences are given to my Soul – so I can truly know that the beast/terrorist/whatever you choose to call it, truly is a cover up – just a role being thoroughly explored – so I can see through “your”  beast to the  shining TRUTH that you are, and recognizing myself.

A Course in Miracles has been my true guide through over 30 years – and the last two years I am following Jesus’ Course nr 2: the one He taught after The Course, intended for all of us who wants to deeper into feeling, and embodying them. It is called “The Way of the Heart.”

When I read the Way of the Heart, I was completely confused about how Jeshua – who his name really is  J could contradict himself so completely! And other students did too, so he answered them, through his channel Jayem, who has taken down Jeshua’s five Core texts – The Way of Mastery PathWays: the Jeshua Letters, The Way of the Heart, The Way of Transformation, The Way of Knowing and The Way of the Servant.

Here is a piece of what he answered – the full 2, 5- page answer is found in The Way of The Heart, Lesson Six – Question and Answer-section

“Beloved friend, A Course in Miracles were initially given to two people who had asked from the depths of their being (although they were not aware of it at that time) to be shown a way to perceive differently. A wise teacher first learns the language of the student. And the two that asked the question carried an orientation in which their primary mechanism for experience was through the level of the mind, or the intellect. Therefore, the teaching tool needed to be conveyed in a way that could be acceptable to them as a student. – – – Those who would hold that the Course in Miracles is a complete teaching device within itself are accurate, IF they understand that it was given to those who are deeply embedded within the intellectual processes, and that it has a specific goal that is self-contained. Those that would assert that viewing a Course in Miracles as a complete teaching tool in itself, if they take this to mean that there is nothing more to explore, nothing further to deepen and become, are inaccurate. View it then, as a teaching device with a specific goal, given in a way that is acceptable to those who have learned to abide primarily in the level of mind that is engaged in conceptualization.”*

*With kind permission to quote from Jayem Hammer, the channel of the series of teachings given by Jeshua through these books.

The Sacred Prostitute continues:

The perpetrator is your creation. The victim is your creation. Through countless incarnations you have played all the roles, so your souls have experienced it all – and so you have the possibility NOW to recognize the “sinners” and “terrorists” as part of your self, just caught in delusion and forgetfulness  – God’s shining children, forgetting who they are, playing in all the costumes available to them.

The world is a stage, as Shakespeare knew- my function and purpose is to share this Knowing through the most intimate sharing the human knows: sexuality.

There is no other time than NOW

Remember who you are

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If you want to read more about this theme, you might google “Sacred Sexuality.”

 

Drama

This is the 40th day of  The 40 day in the desert-process with Lisa Natoli.

I woke up at 5am with the usual poisonous pains in the body, asked for help and remembered Lisa’s theory that when we do not extend the Love that we are – because we forget Who we are – then that energy is turned inward and turns poisonous. It is just energy that is not used the way it is supposed to.

Love wants to be shared – and right now, I was subconsciously  blocking it. I instantly offer to share this love – with whom?

I instantly see images from Congo. Joshua French, the Norwegian man who at first was accused of murdering a Congolese driver together with his friend Tjostolf Moland. Recently Moland died in prison, and French was accused of having murdered him too.

I extend Love to the whole situation and everyone involved, It feels indescribably good, and all poison is gone. While I am extending the Love, there are no thought of judgments, no wondering what this is for, no trying to fix – just allowing unconditional Love into the whole situation.

Then the ego sneaks in an claims the forgiveness as its own: a “me” being the good and saintly one and the Congolese authorities as the baddies – and I asked for help to see this differently. I was shown that what was needed was just a change of my perception of the whole situation – orchestrated as the good and innocent ones and the bad overpowering ones .I remembered Ken Wapnick’s incessant  reminders to his students: The Course is not about changing the world – there is no world – it is about healing the thoughts in the mind that are projected into this world and seemingly creating wars, disasters and evil – and also so-called “good.”

How sobering! All I need to forgive is my perception of the situation – which included distributing character traits, guilt, and blame, as the ego loves it.  The world is a play, as Shakespeare realized. What I see with my physical eyes are only projections of thoughts in the mind – seeming so very real and alive – but still only a projection we humans get caught in.

A beautiful peace ascends on me as I am taken back to Truth – and I pray for help to see the Congo-play differently, and to have my vision of it corrected. As I do this, it feels like looking at figures in an old black-and-white movie, they are flickering shadows. I ask to see clearly, and the figures turn out to be actors distributing roles between them. This scene plays out on the plane before incarnation: “Oh what a great play! So much to learn! You will play the poor Joshua French, and I will play the mean and ugly prosecutor – and then you get to be the innocent one and I will seem to be the villain –  yes, and the Congolese will have bald shiny heads and black suits and they will scream as they prosecute…” and I see them laughing and shaking hands as they distribute the roles in the drama –

– and then I see the “actors” DE-ROLING – now all the “actors” are standing there before me – everybody has “donned” their roles and have acquired important experiences and life-lessons that their souls have wanted. They all have got what they wanted, as the Course teaches – not on the level of the human, but on the level of soul. Now I see only light-beings – and after a little while, I see only One. And It is looking back at me, and saying:

This is all a dream – and you are dreaming it. Forgive yourself: you are the Holy Son of God* who fell asleep and dreamed up a world where there seemed to exist something else than God’s Love and God’s Will. Come Home to your Sacred Self

 

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To any new reader of this blog and unfamiliar with A Course in Miracles:

The “Son of God” referred to is NOT the character Leelah – the human personality – but God’s Holy Son, created in His image – and that creation is Spirit – our true Identity. It is only from Spirit I could see that play unraveling

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Kill or be killed

There is a place i n A Course in Miracles which says:

“T-16.VI.8. Fear not that you will be abruptly lifted up and hurled into reality. 2 Time is kind, and if you use it on behalf of reality, it will keep gentle pace with you in your transition. 3 The urgency is only in dislodging your mind from its fixed position here. 4 This will not leave you homeless and without a frame of reference. 5 The period of disorientation, which precedes the actual transition, is far shorter than the time it took to fix your mind so firmly on illusions. 6 Delay will hurt you now more than before, only because you realize it <is> delay, and that escape from pain is really possible. 7 Find hope and comfort, rather than despair, in this: You could not long find even the illusion of love in any special relationship here. 8 For you are no longer wholly insane, and you would soon recognize the guilt of self-betrayal for what it is.”

Another one:W-328.1. What seems to be the second place is first, for all things we perceive are upside down until we listen to the Voice for God. 2 It seems that we will gain autonomy but by our striving to be separate, and that our independence from the rest of God’s creation is the way in which salvation is obtained. 3 Yet all we find is sickness, suffering and loss and death. 4 This is not what our Father wills for us, nor is there any second to His Will. 5 To join with His is but to find our own. 6 And since our will is His, it is to Him that we must go to recognize our will.

These quotes point to the fact that  the place  from which the human is looking at itself is something that is terrified of heaven and of Oneness. The Course teaches us in 365 lessons  how to undo this thought-system of terror, belonging to the ego, so we can gradually change our mind and realize that Love has nothing but Love to offer – the horrors we project on Love are our own guardians against  our true identity.

I had a dream this night where a little being crept into my childhood home ( the place in my mind where I keep that home “safe” from changes since it is “mine”.) It was strange-looking but sweet and I wanted to protect it.I put it tenderly in  a sunspot on the floor and it went to sleep.

A bit later the dream-me knew she had to fly from danger, and she wanted to take the little being/spirit with her -and the instant she took it in her hand to save it, it frantically and automatically attacked. Its little teeth were piranha-sharp: if her hand had been in front of them, it would have been mashed to porridge in seconds.

This is the ego- thought system. It sees the loving hand that wants to save it, to bring it to love, as something that is attacking it. Upside down perception looking with fear. It goes into killer mood to destroy what it thinks is dangerous: kill or be killed – there are no other options in the mind of fear.

Holy Spirit, I offer you this mechanism, this belief that is going on automatic.Please correct these beliefs in my mind

And I sit down, sense its energy-imprint in the body – wow, the poor head – and allow Presence to shine right through it

Please note that nothing written here is intended as medical advice. Readers who think that they need help with a physical or psychological condition are advised to seek a qualified opinion.

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