The Sweet Embrace

Today, beloved Kit and I discovered that all that murderous rage needs – in order to be healed, is someOne who rests in a sweet smile, knowing What is Truth and eternal

The watchdog of our mind is very tired – it now trusts that there is something else who takes over and knows how to deal with it.

The last week I have experienced that whatever dark energy comes up to be released – or related to – also comes within the sweetest embrace of Christ – the Self. So when it comes, I quickly put my attention inside the sweetness. Not “healing” anything – not “saving” anything or anybody – not “sending love” to anything – just resting inside that Sweetness. And what happens then, is that I become aware that I Am That.

The sweetness of not “oughting to DO something” is indescribable.

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We have to open the door, letting the fresh wind in

and it is not offended –

it just blows

things fall on the floor, are blown around

stuff goes out the window

there is laughter

there goes the costly Ming

PLING

oh, the doilies –

what foilies

 

what is left?

just a smile

 

The Smile

I am currently working on Chapter 30 in the Course, “Rules for decision.” We are told that only when we choose with our “advisor” – Self/Christ – can we expect to be happy. And the ego hates it: it means that it will be abandoned. So today I wanted to go to the movies, and heard an insistent voice telling me not to go. Since it felt so non-loving and nagging, I took the bus anyway – and then I prayed for a sigh that it was true that I should NOT go to town and movie.

There was a pram standing in front of me – its front turned 45 degrees away from me. I did not see the baby’s head earlier – but the second I prayed for a sign, the baby’s head shot out, turned 45 degrees so it looked right at me and smiled and smiled and smiled.

All doubt fell away. I exited the bus and returned home.

 

getting out of the way

When the cramps and pains started again in the night, I went up at once and sat down with the Course, chapter 14.

T-14.XI.6. Do not be concerned about how you can learn a lesson so completely different from everything that you have taught yourself. 2 How would you know? 3 Your part is very simple. 4 You need only recognize that everything you learned you do not want. 5 Ask to be taught, and do not use your experiences to confirm what you have learned. 6 When your peace is threatened or disturbed in any way, say to yourself:

7 I do not know what anything, including this, means. 8 And so I do not know how to respond to it. 9 And I will not use my own past learning as the light to guide me now.

10 By this refusal to attempt to teach yourself what you do not know, the Guide Whom God has given you will speak to you. 11 He will take His rightful place in your awareness the instant you abandon it, and offer it to Him.

Went to bed again. Cramps came, and  I stated the truth that I did NOT want to look at the cramps with a perception from my past. 5 seconds – and the pain left.

Later, cramps came back. I repeated the procedure, more and more trusting that it was safe to step out of the old mode of seeing and fixing things myself.

Cramps went away.

In the morning, the alarm clock came on. Instead of the usual 30 signals, it just went on and on. I  sensed a smile coming inside and stated that I was willing to NOT use past seeing as the light which guided me now.

The same second that thought came, the alarm ended. At 56 signals. And something inside giggled.

Please note that nothing written here is intended as medical advice. Readers who think that they need help with a physical or psychological condition are advised to seek a qualified opinion.

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