Surrender
26 Jan 2019 Leave a comment
in A Course in Miracles blog, Healing, My three books, Videos for laughing and learning something(maybe) Tags: A Course in Miracles, Angelina Jolie, Billy Graham, choice, dream, energies, energy, false identity, forgiveness, God, identity, Japanese, Louis Zamperini, love, male, mind, pain, perception, prison camps, surrender, symbol, trauma, unacknowleded pain, Unbroken, war, Way of Mastery, When fear comes home to Love
Hungry Ghost – or the cravings for sugar
13 Jan 2019 Leave a comment
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Deepening of trust and healing
10 Jan 2019 1 Comment
in A Course in Miracles blog, Healing, My three books Tags: A Course in Miracles, beliefs, cataracts, eating disorders, God, Jeshua, Jesus, seeing, symptoms, When fear comes home to Love, Wolf-hunger
I recently listened to my teacher Israel’s last webcast again, and there is a place where Jeshua REALLY let us hear,” NEVER NEVER NEVVVER listen to the beliefs that you cannot change an old belief – we see this all the time.”
Now I choose to know that I am the right place at the right time. I just have some strong symptoms, wondering if they need medical attention – and at the same time, trust that they DO come from an old belief in utter worthlessness – like ” I am the very center of evil in the world ” – 🙂 no less! For me , it has to do with eating – a kind of “wolf eating” –
I have my second operation of cataracts coming Thursday. I know it is important to do that one – I will have a different degree on myopia than before on my right eye, and my wonderful surgeon tells me that that will do something very good to my brain – which has struggled with one near-sighted and one far-sighted eye for years! 🙂
So this is vital.
Writing this now, I believe that what is happening with my body comes from a part in deep fear from changing that dynamic of seeing – since of course it want to keep the status quo ( Leelah is a victim).
Anybody interested in more of this, feel free to click on “When Fear Comes Home to Love” in the right menu. The reviews will give you a clear idea if it will be helpful for you.
So when the meals come and I feel like “I MUST have something sweet for dessert” I instead pause for 10 minutes and ask God to replace that urge with COMFORT and support. It feels very good – and I still have those maybe blood-sugar- falls, but yesterday a notably less crazy.
I just opened a wise-quote-book, and it said: focus on what you want, not on what you do not want.
So that is what I will do
I remember all the times i have wanted to do something wonderful ( today an appointment to see a movie with my daughter) – and VERY often strong symptoms have popped up, “stay home, you are ill” and I have persevered, and always it has been just fine 🙂
Writing this, I feel 70% better now than when i sat down –
Manifestation of illness *
07 Jan 2019 1 Comment
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Aligning with Source
06 Jan 2019 1 Comment
in Blog Awards Tags: alignment, approvement, distraction, focus, God, Home, Jeshua, Judith Coates, source, Spirit
Incredible exciting things are happening – it’s all about alignment. “ I choose to love only God” evolves joyfully into “ I choose to align with Love.”
1)I have hearing aids the last 4-5 years. For me, not hearing good is connected with something I do not want to hear. And again for me, that has turned out to be God or Self.
This morning there was after 3 days constant practice easy to align.
I went to the PC in the morning – my favorite means for distraction, and an old pattern – to need closeness from others to feel safe and OK. Needing approvement from the outside has always laid at the bottom of the “me” I have created – as my main lifeline.
Now I was asked by Spirit to stay in focus.
I worked with a manuscript for a magazine, and saw something on my desktop, and started to edit a text from Jeshua, coming through Judith Coates. I had copied it from a Newsletter and the formatting needed editing. It took a lot of time, I grew heavy and dense and exhausted.
I stopped the work – and asked Spirit “where did I fall off the horse?” And immediately saw the editing. I was editing Jeshua words into a more space-economical form J
The moment I recognized it, all the power came rushing back, I was fully present.
2) At breakfast, I had decided to not end the breakfast with something sweet – usually bread with honey and cinnamon. This has been my habit for years. I found a reason not to break the habit J and felt heavy and sluggish. And yes, it was not because of the honey, but because I had changed my decision and broken a promise to my self.
Now too did the life force return pretty instantaneous.
3) I was stitching. Gradually feeling exhausted. Realized that underlying the process was again the old pattern of hoping for approvement from others stitchers on Facebook. I stopped and spoke to Spirit again, affirming that I wanted to ALIGN and do the work WITH this alignment.
What I before ( and now) thought was the effect of low blood sugar now realigned itself into full presence within a minute.
Very exciting it is, very promising – and very demanding when it comes to focus on alignment. Burt it has also truly convincing: I want this alignment MOST OF ALL. It is simply HOME.
I will not go until you bless me
02 Jan 2019 Leave a comment
in A Course in Miracles blog, Healing Tags: A Course in Miracles, agony, blessing, feelings, God, Israel, Jacob wrestling with the Angel, Jesus and the leprosic man, judged, judgment, Leprose
When the agony came in the night, I heard myself say out loud, but so tenderly: I will turn around and bless you.
I have always been fascinated with the story in the Bible when the man with leprose grabs Jeshua’s coat and says this to him. Googling for this now, I see that I have mixed two stories: The story about Jacob wrestling with the angel, and the leper wanting Jesus to heal him. I was certain that the leper had said “I will not let you go until you bless me” – and googling now, I see that those were Jacob’s words.
Those words still carry great meaning and truth: I cannot heal what I first have not blessed.
In A Course of Miracles, J tells us to say this internally when we feel threatened by another: “Holy Son of God, give me your blessing.”
I have practiced this often – i remember particularly one hot train-day back home, when very unpleasant behavior in other train passengers changed and melted like butter in the sun – only because I was willing to see their true nature.
So in the night I by Grace turned toward the agony and said this, and extreme tensions I have carried for a whole life and probably more, started to melt out of me. I realized I had contributed to their being there, by always intensely resisting them and judging them and myself.
Gradually I was helped to see that the agony consisted of a myriad of judged feelings and thoughts – and that the healing consisted of simply accepting them now, seeing them as neutral, not giving them any power by giving them meaning and telling stories about them.
This morning I wanted to share this here, and googled for the original words from the leper. Google brought me to this site – which is not what I was looking for, but what I needed:
https://www.desiringgod.org/articles/i-will-not-let-you-go-unless-you-bless-me
A New Human: transformation of suffering, an alchemic process
01 Jan 2019 1 Comment
in A Course in Miracles blog, Art and consciousness, Healing, Now Tags: battle, Christ, Christ Consciousness, Christ energy, creation, darkness, dynamic of opposites, dynamics, evil, fear, forgetfulness, God, Home, homecoming, ignorance, journey, opposites, polarities, suffering, transformation, true nature
I have recently practiced ” I choose to want God/LOVE above all NOW.”
It truly has rolled beautifully, until this morning when the usual agony was back. I opened a note-book at my bed table: (Please click on it to get the whole text.)
I then remembered that I had already painted three images of this process many years ago. Luckily I saved them in a file on my PC – here is how it may look when we, as Self, embrace the darkness – and what it then turns into ♥
Here it is absorbed
and these two images show the next two stages in the transformation process
As you see, the darkness has transformed into a Menorah – a light-giver